Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and once more in spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. The autumn months were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on a single eye that peaks within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial sweating. I have the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; others have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through childhood. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to several causes, made things more intense. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable pain took its effect. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been documented across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an evil entity who afflicted his victims' heads.

Historical medical texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a separate condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the first comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosing and managing happen because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

National guidelines on management advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication administered by nasal spray. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle dictates the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Paula Kennedy
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